I want him on me. I want him inside of me. I want him near me.

I don't want that to fuck THIS up.

What is this though? Is it a spring fling? Could it be a temporary distraction from his normal routine?

I almost called it quits earlier. And for what? a missed text? Wow. Yeah. I'm ridiculous, but I'm saying now, if that video wasn't posted for me? I'm one exceptionally jealous woman.

Twitterpated

I feel like something is going to go horribly wrong very soon.

I've been happier this week than I've been in years. I'm not accustomed to this. I'm just waiting for the bottom to fall out.

I know I'm not IN LOVE, but how do you go from being friends to this without fucking something up? Is it possible? And if we fuck it up, can we go back to being friends or is it over forever?

Am I the only one that finds it impossible to be happy being happy?

I don't know what to do right now, so I am going with it. I'm hiding nothing. I have trust issues. He knows this. He has trust issues, I know this. I just hope that he's being honest. I'm honestly pushing the bounds of my security.






If someone makes me forget Marcus, they're worth the risk. That's where I am now.