I've done some really stupid shit this last week. Aside from blowing over $500 on booze and gambling, I've been doing some things I am not proud of. I've become a raving lunatic.

I've always been a little loud and off-kilter, but this breakup has brought out the absolute worst in me.

I am trying to forgive myself. I am trying to change who I am. I want to be someone else. I want to be someone who doesn't have to ask f6r help, but will if they need to. I want to be someone that my friends are proud of. More so, I want to be someone my grandparents don't worry about 24/7.

This has been a long time coming, but I have to make a change sometime.